Evans 5th birthday

The Sadie, Kay was asleep. 

Evans birthday fell on a Tuesday this year so we took him out the weekend before and went to a chinese buffet(his choice).  He loved the food and enjoyed telling everyone he saw that he was five! On his actual birthday we had cupcakes after dinner and sang him a song. He got a new track suit and superman coat which he loves. He is really into superheroes and clothing. Here are some pics of his b-day celebration....

My boys:)

Miss Emmy!!

How can I explain Evan... I honestly never know where to start with him. He was a light in my darkness. I love the hope he gives me and the Christlike love that exudes from him. I see him growing and it breaks my heart. It's hard to believe that he already five and will have three siblings that will look up to him in April. He always will have a tight grip on my heart and I know his purpose as a baby was to heal me from the overwhelming care and worry I had at the time with Kay. He snuggled and loved me and made me feel secure and peaceful, and for that I owe him so much.  I love that he is so soft spoken and empathetic. 

I didn't really know how best to describe his Christlike empathy that is incredibly powerful and exudes from him, so I decided to share this moment I had with him, because it's something I will never forget;

The day we found out about Hyrum...Evan Sadie and Emily were all with me at my ultrasound( because I thought it would be routine). I tried to keep my tears from them, but I couldn't. In that little hospital room Evan grabbed my hand leaned his head on my shoulder and cried with me, then quietly said," don't worry mommy I will be daddy right now...I love you, it's ok". We've always know that his understanding has only been prohibited by his lack of speech and not by his lack of mental capacity, but that small act showed me how much he truly understands us and loves us. He seems wise beyond his years and I wonder if he was chosen to be my comforter in this life,

 at my darkest moments. I love him and I can't wait to see what being five brings him. We love you Ev-bot, our family makes no sense without you.